71 Days

Happy Monthsary honey! It's our 4th month today and this month didn't go as smoothly as I wished it did and being so far away from you didn't help too. We've been through quite a bit this month and I'm glad we managed to sort things out. We'll be fine, I know we will!   

Love you honey, looking forward to many more monthsaries with you!

78 Days

78 days, that's for me
77 days, that's for you

Hey honey, the past few days was pretty rocky for us. But I'm glad we settled it all today. Actually it did not bother me at all that we started off naturally but it's still really sweet of you to ask me if I wanted to be your gf today because you said you've never asked me before. 

I have to admit that it took me awhile to reply because, just for a moment, I thought that it would be better if we ended everything since I'm getting tired of all the problems we have. But then you asked me not to give up yet, and that made me think twice. I know if we want to work things out we need to face the problems together and I'm glad to know that you are willing to face them together with me. 

I may make it sound like it's easy for me to let go of this relationship but it's really not, not at all. I'm just trying to put up a strong front because I thought that it would be better for me to get hurt now rather than when I fall too deep and too hard later on. I'm sorry that I only thought about myself getting hurt and not you.

Like you said you want to keep being my bf, that's the same for me too. I want you to keep being mine and I want to keep being yours too. It's because this relationship matters so much to me, that's why I'm telling you exactly how I feel because I want things to work out for us. I'll try to change to be less sensitive *but you know, I can't sense the change in air pressure around me, I'm not that extreme. -.- hahas* and I hope that you can change a little for me too. 

That's all for today, good night honey. 

Day 82

Day 83, that's for me.

Day 82, that's for you. Since I'm posting entries in Singapore Time

Hey Honey, I am not too sure if you even read this blog but I understand that it's because your data is pretty limited. I've missed a few days of blogging because I was really busy with settling down in Paris. Paris is good so far, except for the gloomy weather and that shops are closed on Sundays. Even the marche and carrefour.

Like you know, I've started school today. School is pretty boring because we don't get to do much hands on, other than weigh and prep, since the teacher does pretty much everything and he speaks in French most of the time and only translates less than half of what he mentioned. So basically we don't get to know much, we just follow the instructions on the book. It's like paying 11 grands for the recipes I guess. School hours are bad but thank god it's only 3 days a week, because honestly I can't stand how minimal our conversation is when I am in school. You're up and busy when I just wake up and already going to bed when I just end school. 

Anw, I'm glad that I did not lose touch in piping rounds. Was kind of stress when the teacher asked me to pipe the rounds and not to mention, with the whole class looking. Hahas! Thanks to 1 whole year of macaron making. :) 

You said before that I should miss you just enough rather than too much or else I'll be sad. Today I'm missing you more than too much. Much much more actually. And listening to MLTR isn't helping because it reminds me of you so much. Just hope that time passes faster. 

Day 88

I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. Then I saw that you weren't perfect, and I loved you even more.

Hey honey, I know that Paris is far but we'll be alright. We will find it in our hearts to give a little love and so have a little faith in the two of us.

Love you honey! 

Day 89

I am home already, went out with syahrul today for sushi and karaoke. 3 hours of karaoke... so tired. Hehehehee, I woke up really late today ya? 1030. Because I was busy with my research last night. They say paris is dangerous at night and there are places we have to avoid at night so I wanted to research on that. Found a few places and they are pretty close to where I am staying. Time to buy some pepper spray, maybe? Hahas.

No one's gna come home for dinner tonight. It's dinner alone again. But I'm used to it so that's alright, I think...

2 more days before I fly off to Paris. Still a bit unsure but I'm starting to get excited.  Unsure because I don't know how easy or difficult it is to stay in a country that doesn't speak my language for 2.5months. The 4 of us will be depending on my pocket guide to speaking French for survival. Hahaha! 

That's pretty much it for today! Hope you had a good day too!

Day 90

Ohgosh, my eyebags! I didn't sleep well last night, had bad dreams. Mehhhh~ I do get bad dreams when I go to bed with my stomach still feeling full. 

I'm finally packing my stuffs for Paris today. So much to bring, not just clothes and make-up like you said. What about shoes? Chef shoes, runners, boots, slippers. Electronics. My endless toiletries because of my sensitive skin. Emergency medical kit in case someone need some medicine and there's no pharmacy near our area? Hahahas. I told you I'm doraemon. ^_^ Thankgod we don't have to bring our toolbox over. 

Felt really weird the whole day today, not too sure how to explain this feeling or how this feeling came about. Maybe it's because I'm packing to go to Paris and finally starting to feel that my dream is coming true, or because I know that when I get to Paris we are even further apart. I really don't know. But what I know for sure is that I really miss you, especially today. 

It's been 10 days since we've parted, but 10 days somehow feels like forever... We have another 90 days to go! We can do it! Our conversation on WhatsApp was fun today, "thanks" for trolling me -.- ...  LOL. But really, thanks for making me laugh! That weird feeling feels so much easier to handle when I'm having fun. XD

Anw I guess you must be really tired today, everyday actually, you fell asleep half way through. Hahahas. Hope you're sleeping tight and having good dreams! *no more maggots attacking you! I killed them all*

Selamat Tidur Honey!

Day 91

Hey honey like you said, 3 months is too long. I know and I'm sorry because Paris was planned before we even met... Let us take this 3 months as a test, if we can make it through this 3 months, and I know we can, we will be pretty much alright later on because Indonesia and Singapore is really near. 

And it has come to a point in this relationship that I just can't let go anymore. So let's face the problem together, even if the going gets tough, we mustn't give up each other. 

You pretty much know what I've been doing the whole day today. Just eating and eating non stop. My stomach feels like it's gna explode anytime soon. T_T

That's all for today,

Love you hon!